do read this post kay! (:

somehow i got the feeling that im growing up, growing more the more mature, no longer a small kid.
*cheh cheh cheh XD

Things that i used to do, things that i used to say, things that i used to have, i things that i used to like/dislike, things that i used to hate, things that i used to comment, things that i used to give perception on, things that i used to judge, thoughts that i used to have..

ARE NO LONGER NOW. all were the past.

to be honest, i guess NS had changed my life tremendously although its just in a short period, 72days. (minus those holz that we had).
its not even 3 months kay! 2 months plus only!
i know some people must be wondering..

"how sure are u? real one ah? how you know? i dont think so.. got meh? i dont believe u.. u gotta be joking.."

up to u on what u wanna judge, but this has happened to me.

I tend to be more independent, more socialized, more grateful on whatever i have, more daring, more confident, more friendly, spent more wisely, more understanding, more responsible...
the most important thing is, being away from home makes me realized how important my friends and family are, no matter how teruk they are at times.

AND,
i did not regret at all for joining NS! i guess i would like to go again if i have the opportunity. but... i only want kem semarak, pahang. LOL.

i really wanna appologize to her for she was the one, praying and hoping that i would get selected. Well, to be honest, i blamed her alot when i got the results, knowing that i got selected. thousand appologies yo!

a question to ponder:
HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT THAT ONE DAY, WHAT IF YOUR PARENTS ARE NOLONGER AROUND?
its a assumption kay, no cursing or whatever. just something for u to ponder about.

this ques was given by out lovable Jurulatih, Cikgu Adek from kem semarak, pahang.



When you were young, a kid, your parents take good care of u. They nurture you, feed you, get everything u want and need, and try their very best to provide the best in your life. You were just like their precious gold. you were so close to them, 24/7 around them, except if they are working or something.

Next level: kindergarten. You spent approximately 4 hours there, per day. i bet most of us cried on the first few days in kindergarten right? cuz that was the first time u were away from home, away from family (maybe not for those who had daycare since baby)
you came home, hugged n kissed mum's cheek. mum taught u how to read n write.

And then, primary school. you spent approximately 5-7 hours per day in school. homeworks and tuition loads were getting heavier. bigger burden, lesser time spent at home.


Secondary School.
i guess most of us teenagers are rebellious, esp those parents who sort of.. control your life tightly. most of us wanna try new things, want freedom.. we always want to go n hangout, hang around with friends as frequent as possible. hours that were spent in school or outside of house are getting more n more each day. this time, 6-10hours. we tend to come home as late as possible, spent lesser time at home, left our parents at home worrying bout us.

College/ University
some of us will further our studies to overseas, some will study at diff states or diff places, some remain static. some of us will stay at the hostel, dormitory ..... and some still staying at their home. alot more lesser time spent at home with your family. well.. parents spent a lum sum of money to give us a brighter future, better education. those lum sum of money were all their hardwork, counting by months and years.
finally, you graduate. parents are so proud of u.

Marriage
i guess most of us will have our own couples.. and after a few years we will get married. getting married means building a new home, new family, another new chapter of life. well, some of us will leave our parents right? having a new house, or staying at mother-in-law place..
and yea, we finally left home.


we grow older, parents grow older too. now, we got our own income, own job, own house, own car, everything. they're getting older, and they dont have the ability to work and find a living. its time for them to resign and retire and enjoy their life with the leftover time they had been given.
IT IS YOUR RESPONSIBLITY TO TAKE CARE TO THEM BACK LIKE THEY USED TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOU WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG???

they too, spent so much money/ hardtimes/ time/ energy on you. dont you think u should repay all those?

Did you just realized something? you n your parents gap are getting further each step you take, each stage of life. its getting further, further and furtherrrrr.
what if one day , they just gone like that? does that mean that your relationship with them ends there, just like that?

i bet in your life, lots of things u had done to ur parents are hurtful/ sad/ regretful. what if one day your parents just leave like that? DO YOU HAVE THE CHANCE TO APPOLOGIZE, ASK FOR FORGIVENESS AND REPAY WHAT THEY HAD GIVEN U?


when i was in NS, i had few campers who their family members: cousins, father, mother... passed away. i see them packing their things, leaving the campsite with full of tears and sadness.

there's Jurulatihs in our camp, whose their kid or family member are sick and ill, yet they cant go back immediately to visit/ take care of them. some of them who their wife/ father/ mother passed away, didnt even get the chance to go back and see their last face, ask for forgiveness and stuffs.


what i wanna say is.. what if u regret and its too late to mend things up?
keyword: appreciate :)

2008, korea.


i wanna appologize if i ever hurt anyone's feeling in this post, if its too messy that you dont get the picture of what am i trying to talk about, super long post, boring post or whatsoever..

thousand appologies yo!!


please read and dont just scroll down just like that. just spend a few minutes in ur life reading this, can?

lol, i spent 1 hour plus typing this out. pity me lah! lol. ;D