I am truely, deeply sorry.

I had just realized how horribly i had changed over these months.
I still couldnt control my temper when i am in stress.
i ain't good at hiding feelings, pretending that i am happy, smiling widely with glee.
I ain't good at em. I am truely sorry bout that.

I had just realized how horrible I am when i am in stress.
Words are not interpreted by brain- It just.. came out like that.
without realizing it, for real.
Like a sharp knife, cutting through soft hearts.
And that is why at times, i chose to be quiet and not in speaking terms- to zip my dangerous harmful scary pokey mouth.
I could imagine how scary am i, right now.
DAMN.

I am truely sorry to the people that i had hurt.
it wasn't on purpose, seriously.
I had no idea why my mouth just couldnt swallow down the words and it simply.. pooped up.
i had no idea why my brain ain't functioning- on interpreting before the words came out.
I am so sorry, people.

I was stunned, by the moment u repeated my lines.
Why am i so horrible? so scary? so mean? so sucky?
This, i couldnt explain.
one line- I suck. true enough. with facts as the explaination.

i just couldnt control anything, everything. my group work, coming to deadline, with so much things to do, presentations, another acc assignment, and finals in 2 weeks time which i don't even have the time to study?
i couldn't manage em all.


I wonder with my scary poking words, how will i do in Law, Ehhh?
:D

Dear Lord, please help me with my choice of words before i speak. Please help me to coupe with everything and not going nuts. Please help me to have self control.

In Jesus name,

Amen.