swallowed words.

you know, sometimes my anger/ patience has gone up to the extend where i just feeling like screaming and yelling and spill all the vulgars out.
I know it's sinful. :(


one thing, being a christian is not easy at times. is this obstacles that is given by God? or.. it's just satan's temptaions?
I bet there's many people out there who is watching my actions, everyday.
Especially when i am a christian.
whether i talk, my thinking, my expressions, tempers, everything- you name it.

The first thing will come to their mind: i thought she is a christian and she should behave like one?
Pretty hard at times, where i gotta just.. swallow all my words, eat my words down.
especially vulgars, when i am so pissed off and.. wanting to throw foul words.
sometimes it does make me feel good. GEEEZ.

Dear Lord, please help me to swallow and eat all my words, think before i react and.. throw words out. Please help me to overcome with all my vulgars and my temper. Please help me to behave more like a christian when i don't behave like one, at times.

In Jesus name,

Amen.

:)