things doesn't go the way as you want it.

China Independence day yesterday ^^

geez. their independence day is like.. so mega happening. they seems so happy but their independence day, really enjoyed it and.. really celebrate it.

but msia? does this really happen?

I mean, they really have interesting programmes for the Independence day in China. The fireworks, the super-straight-nice-robot-marching, performance, yada yada.. seems so.. mega.

Whereas ours, it's pretty.. dull and boring. almost the same one every year.

And once, i watched till i.. slept. LOL. and from then onwards, i don't watch em anymore. LOL.

really, no offence laaaa. that's my.. opinion.

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WOW. time seriously flies. Just now, on the way back, i saw my neighbour's son. last time he used to be.. so small and kinda.. timid. And now, He's so much more taller, good looking..

Not only that. my opposite neighbour boys and girls too! plus, My childhood friend, kawan baik, her brothers.. wow. grown up so much. Physically, mentally.

Maybe people do see that ive changed, too. maybe it's something that i can't see in myself.

o.0 what am i yapping again ==

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Sometimes things doesnt work as you want it or wish that it would happen. i don't know it's the fate or.. it's sometimes done by people's acts or.. behaviour.

whether it's studies, plans. relationships or whatsoever.
I wonder what did it trigger that? the problems within it? behaviours? how people look at it and how people treat it?

Sometimes it's really.. fustrating. Here you say that you wished for it to happen, and there you just.. do nothing and.. miss the chance and let it go.

geeez. is this human nature or what? or it's just.. you and me?

well, ooh well. im giving up and let it be.. natural. natural works best.

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IDK. i really don't know.

maybe.. there's just a border line in everything, whether in friendships, status, races, religions, background, POB, mindset, thoughts, the way you approach things, the way you react, yada yada..

or maybe.. they drew it by themselves so that we can't go any nearer.

it's either im too.. open minded or.. they aren't open minded.

it's either im trying too hard to build the pathway or they are.. trying to ruin it.

it's either only me treating them as friends and they treat us as.. -mates.

it's either im too eaily to trust people or.. they don't easily adapt to people and don't really trust people.

it's ether im working too hard for it or they are simply.. lazy.

LOLLLLLLLLLLL. my yappings.

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Maybe, Maybe and.. maybe.

maybe time does changes everything.

or maybe im just.. hoping too much of it.

alright, understood. natural works best and stop bothering it since there's no responses.

shaddup and let the life circle work.

LOL. having all sorts of thoughts lately ;D

and it's kinda.. bothering me.

GEEEEEEEEEEEEEZZZZZZ.
and sometimes i really wanna give upppp. studies? life? happenings? relationships?
Seriously, im facing problems with numbers and.. this whole business course.
Im just too scared that if i finished this course, taking Marketing degree , ended up with regrets.
or, if i change course, i regretted more.
IDON'TKNOWDON'TASKMEIAMBLURIAMFUSTRATEDABOUTTHISTOPICBUTISTILLCAN'TGETOVER ITALTHOUGHIKNOWNOONECANHELPMEWITHTHIS.



i know it's easy to say, but hard to do.
i know sometimes holding on to it is hard, and giving up is a piece of cake.
i know i gotta have faith and be positive, but sometimes breaking down and being emo feels good.
i know i am no good and trying to be better, but sometimes no matter how much i work, i don't see the results.
i know i shouldn't be giving up things again, but sometimes i just can't help it.
i know i gotta have faith in that, but sometimes it seems impossible.
i know i gotta work, but sometimes im.. too lazyyyy.
i know natural works best, but sometimes i can't help it as it keeps popping in my mind.
i know i can't expect too much, cause sometimes things aren't mend to be like that.
i know i shouldnt yap too much here, but i am still yapping,
LOL.


okayyy seriously enough of yappings. buhbyesayonara :D