shyeety 3 days.

i hate holidays.
they are never productive.
but, it's always productive for sleeps!

T.T
slept 11 hours today. pig like shyeeeeet.
went out, this and that, yada yada...
and now i haven't finish a single thing.

damn.
i hate holidays.
and it's never good for us.
maybe not us, but just.. me.

HOLIDAYS SUCKS.

recalls.

watched this last 2 weeks ago. LOL. i know it's really too late but yea,
personally rated 7/10.
yes there's some humour but yea...

watched this yesterday night.
personally rated 6.5/10.
it wasnt as awesome as the previous ones. plot, kinda boring to me. sorry. all expected ones, nothing special :/
i don't think there's any hawtie girls/ actress in this movie, this time.
but that guy, super hottie! :D
*heart melts

huhu went to mid valley today after church ^^
went for... facial treatment! wow. my first time :)
kinda relaxing, but not a good day for me. as in, while i was relaxing, i still have my own probs stucked up in my head!
sadddddd :/

walked around in midvalley.. it's been long since i hangout, shopping! didn't buy anything. T.T
it was actually a trip there for my sis to buy clothes and for me to do facial treatment.
wow alot of people wearing mask. like over 10 person, 3/4 wearing mask.

had dinner at a japanese restaurant, Yuzu, The Gardens. wowwww its soooo yummy! unbeatable compared with The Zen in sunway pyramid and.. Sumo.
no offence tho.

This reminds me of the movie ive watched yesterday-Bring It On.
"why do people say no offence after they actually hurts u?"
something liddat. LOL.

Udon set, hot stone chicken set, yuzu no1 set, and some imported fish set.
YUMMMMMMMM:)

been busy for the whole 2 days. i wonder when am i actually.. gonna start to study and work on my Maths and accounts and everything.
tutorials! assignments! and more!
ooh mannnn. :/


when was the last time we had fun together, happily, like.. for real?
years ago huh? i couldnt even remember that.
how sadddddddd.

emotional breakdown.

what am i doing here?
what ahhh? i don't know.

what is business maths all about?
i don't know. it seems like an alien language to me.

why am i taking this course?
i don't know. whyyy am i here ahhhh?

why am i still staying at this course and not leaving for mass comm?
huh?? cause it's already too late. buh byeeee, mass comm!

what is your name?
what is my name ahhhh?

where is your brain?
o.0 brain, brain.. where are u? opps. i guess its lost. somewhere. or.. should i say i don't know where.

nutty post ehhh? :D
yea nuts people like me post this kind of nutty post.



well, holding back tears is not easy.
but i shall practice that to make it perfect.
LOL.
ganbateneh!

wore heels today, for the formal dress code. walked around ss15 with that till 5.30pm? super pain, and yes. red patches, skin peeling, and i bet tmr i'll get those.. popping watery red ones.
:(

blur day too. was blur and quiet. maybe i just.. got up from the wrong side of the bed this morning. or.. grumpy? or.. simply emotional breakdown.
well, maybe i had too many days of laughing and being soooo happy and my emotional cells are jealous, so yea.. they all come in ?
LOL. what kind of theory is this.

libraried, with stella until.. 5.30pm i guess? had bubble tea summore. yayyyy!
i guess im super addicted to bubble tea now. :D oooh bubble tea, muh love!
had a good chat with her. hahahahahaa. and if plan is on, tmr i'll go pasar with her at 8am!
LOL.
fun college life ehhh?. instead of hanging around, shopping, movies or some sort like that, tmr we're going for pasar. ss15 one.
;D



p.s: i think june is lost. somewhere. i can't find her too.
maybe she simply needs a break. away from everything.
doors shut, minds closed.
sayonaraaaaa :D

some like it hot, some like it cold.

oooh yeah :D
im feeling good today. superrrr.

just had cheesy wedges as what i was craving for in the library. yummmmmm :)
BMA pop quiz today, i think im screwing it up.
but yes, i still feel good today.
no idea whyyyy. maybe cuz.. tmr is friday? and 3 offdays?
o.0 let me tell u. off days are not good for me. well, i tend to procrastinate. super alot. and everything will just pile up and higher and higher and poooof!
i need to work like a cow. as always.

anyone wanna study at library everyday, from now onwards? finish up assignments, tutorials, group study?
cuz i just can't seem to work at home. too many distractions.
tv, food, comp, hangkai, movies, food, noise, food, fooling around, talk, food and more food.
HAHAHAHHAA.
ooh yes, imma food lover. lots of cravings everyday.

ooh man. time flies super fasttttt. everyday rushing for assignments, and tutorials and time flies fast , just like that.
i think it's slightly faster than spm days.
it's like.. ooh assignment due date.. yay ive finish! ooh nooo mid sems are here. :/
maybe cuz.. foundation is the fast lane? or what?
or simply.. too busy and.. time passes faster then.


well, ooh well.
o.0 i dun understand why other people's college life is soooo.. fun.

i wonder why.

whyyyy ahhhhh?

standing alone in the edge.

OMG.
my fist time staying back in college until 9pm, in the library.
well, mixed feelings.

it's accounts individual assignment again, deadline- this fri.
Super stressed up, didn't really understand how is it and how to do it.
heavy burdened, like the whole world is crashing on my shoulders.

Business maths group assignment- as usual, didn't understand a single thing they're talking,
its like im living in my own world,
or i flew into another world.
Seriously, complete blank.
I wanna contribute to the group, but i just.. can't.
i dont really understand the concept and the.. maths.
DANG.
again, this problem popping in my mind:
"how am i gonna survive degree level when i, myself can't even manage the so-called-simple, foundation level, plus degree level is nothing like foundation, way-too-easy?!?!"


on the other hand, staying back in library was.. something like in a roller coaster.
full of ups and downs.
At first, was super tired as yesterday, did the tiring community service, then tutorials..
and classes today were.. errr.. quite long.
Then, stress began to pop in. was frigging stress until, all kinds of food cravings coming in.
Next, decide to stay back to finish up everything- went for dinner.

After dinner, came back to library.
Was getting high and nuts. Total siau case. kept laughing non-stop like some.. nuts, crazy woman.
Then, began to calm down and.. stress cells coming up.
Anddddd, behtahan came back home at 9pm.

huhuhuuuuu, and now i still have to rush for my work. it seems like im not gonna finish it like.. forever. it seems like.. its taking.. forever.
NOOOOOOOOO T.T

i seriously need sleep nowwwwwww. stress cells, shoo and please, go away.
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
im so tired. and it's only.. 35 days+.
i still have long days to come.

ooh sorry for another lame, boring post. expressing here, so yea. don't be bothered.
:/

it might seems that it's.. pretty gross, pretty ugly,

but actually, it hurts.

ALOT.

very.

stay strong girl :)

Old Folks Home community service after college today for 4 hours.
ive learnt something new. :)
it wasn't that bad.

i chatted with some of the popos. it was.. quite a good experience.
"be grateful for what u have. stay strong in everything u do, as nothing comes easy."- By sam gu, one of the residence in Joyhaven.

yes, i shall bear in mind whatever that she has told me today. i shall stay strong in TBF and not.. tumble down easily. i should work hard to overcome all these, and not tumble down just by my silly weakness .

i should work hard laaa. mid terms is in.. 2 weeks time! o.0 kantoi!

how i wish...

i need to learn and grow up.

ooh well, ooh well.
i just had a disastrous lunch.
know i truely understand why she can't take it at times and just.. pooof off and.. burn the house with her flames within her.
i really salute her, really.
i wonder how am i gonna survive through my days if one say she is no longer living in this world.
really.

God, i really wanna thank you for her.
i dont think there's anyone in this world that could tolerant him more than she could.
and yes, me either, coulnt tolerant him.
without her,
i don't think we can live happily like now.
without her,
i don't think we can survive through the days.
ooh yes,
she's the superwoman, wonderwoman.
And as i grow, i understand how she feels and why she react like that at times.

God, i really hope that you would keep her safe and healthy everyday,
for she still have to take care of her 'little' ones.
If one day, she really needs to leave us,
could u just trade myself for her?
ooh yes,
im really serious about it.
cause if there's a need,
i don't think i can handle things like she does.
everything will just turn up to be disastrous,
and i might just ended up commiting suicide to end everything.




to be honest, i don't really enjoy the trip, although there's good companies around.
nah. nothing special, its just the usual thing.
everytime, anywhere.
don't ask me why.
u might just understand the whole thing if we just.. switch places.
i'll be you, and you'll be me.
for a day?
not that im not thankful or what, but with this kind of shitty things happen,
no matter how fun the thing is,
it'll just end up to be disastrous one.


sorry guys. no gifts or anything from camerons. :/
o.0 tmr u guys might not recognize me- this 3 days ive been eating like a pig.

char siew pau, siew mai, yu dan, 1 big piece of hot and spicy KFC chicken, 1 large cheesy wedges, some popcorn chicken, 2 herbal tea eggs, 3 sticks of strawberry ice cream, today's lunch, mint choco chip, and more laaaa.
all yummy, especially for distressing.
:)


see. now i gotta work like a cow after that trip. :/
o.0 looks like i might need to go for the genting trip in 2 weeks time.
ooh, what a trip.



p.s: i got my P licence! :D
p.p.s: camerons gave freebies. and my lucky freebie is... FLU! ;D

damn wrong course.

frigging BMA assignment.
i dont even understand a single thing.
AND THIS IS JUST IN.. BUSINESS FOUNDATION.
WHAT MORE WHEN IM IN THE DEGREE LEVEL.

shooooooot me please. just shoot me.
i dont even know what am i doing here in business foundation when i dont even have anything in mind ABOUT BUSINESS. not even a single thing. a single mini dot about it.
RAWRRRRRR.

stupid idiot juneeee. ure the world most stupidest woman.
=.=
can u just.. evaporate from this busy world, everyone with their own roles and plays which u dont even have one mini role?!?!


o.0 i see people having more fun in other courses. LOL.

single rocks socks :D

greetings from.. Cameron Highlands!

Yes. im here, AND i don't wish to be here. I was sort of.. forced to be here. And, im not happy with it. LOL. so im gonna.. sorta.. or maybe, yes, complaining here! :D

yesterday finished my acc individual assignment at 12 something. then, forced my heavy eyes to pack my bag for 3 days 2 night. AND yes, i was grumbling, mumbling, moaning, whinning and everything that u could think of. soooo angry and tired. LOL.
maybe cuz.. i didn't have enough of sleep and the amount of stress or maybe.. simply just, i dont wanna be here.

had lunch with the gang, then straight headed to camerons. I nearly died throughout the journey. 5 hours plus of journey! cuz we were waiting for people and yea.. we gotta drive slowly as we're bringing people up.
pretty nice weather here. i think there's around.. 19 of us here. had our very own steamboat for dinner. yada yada..


ooh i brought my whole stack of workloads here, which literally explains why i don't wanna be here, rather being at home.
to finish up my workloads.
mid term is in 2 weeks time! ooh man. miss tham lovessss to remind us bout that every now and then.
alright. not only miss tham, but the other lecturers too!

nothing much to yap now. LOL.
ooh congrats to Elaine! :)

buhbye. :/

*edits
guess what? i took half n hour to shower. the water was running.. slow.
slow pace of life, water too, running slow?
chehcheh no offence ya people! just .. crapping. :D

neways, life here is pretty good lah. maybe a break from.. the fast pace of life in KL. workloads.
ehhhh i brought my whole stack of workloads here! which means, this hols is not a break for me.
boooohoooo.

never forget that single rocks socks yo, girl.
focus on studies girl. FOCUS!
ooh man. that sudden feeling,
is rushing through my veins.
NOOOOOO.


ehhh how come some people can just.. enjoy their college life, which is sooo.. opposite of mine?
or maybe.. time just havent come yet? OR.. is it not coming at all?

should i? shouldnt i?

YES last minute work always work. finally ive stayed back in the library for at least 3.5 hours for that stupid acc assignment ^^

yeeehaaaah. i wun get enough sleep tonight. gotta rush acc assignment, moral assigment and.. i still have to pack my bag for tommorrow!
seriously i DON'T wanna go Camerons tmr laaaaaa. i dont want to! T.T
so many things havent do yet.
SIEN.


today is THE DAY. well, i still havent come into conclusion. well, i only realize that it was 6 something when i was doing my assignment. no time to enquire and yeah.
tmr perharps?
:/

will be leaving for camerons at 2pm plus. im bringing my laptop, so yeah, will update more tmr :)

i still look.. horrible.

life sucks. to the max.

i know.

life is.. simply imperfect.

smile and just, pretend.

I didn't know how horrible i looked today.
until i scan myself through the mirror.
Not even scanning, just simply a glance.
It's so obvious. A statement already.
oooh man. i really wanna scream and shout.
But if i really do, everyone in the library will be alarmed.

Now i understand why i felt the pain for the whole frigging day.
Now i know.

The main reason for me not being confident for all these while was because of this.
The main reason of not choosing mass comm from the beginning was.. this. and confidence.
For me, mass comm is also about the appearance. the confidence within you.
ooooh man. i don't even have the confidence to face it tommorrow.
how am i gonna face this?!
I, myself also felt gross and disguisting bout it. What more the others?!
I know, it's gone.
goneeee into the winds. dissapeared. poooof.


Alright girl. Grow, please grow.
think in the positive way;
there are more people who got this, are much worse than you do.
Just be thankful and grateful that you're not as bad as some of them.
you've seen them before, right?
Just accept whatever that is given with an open heart.
Well, girl, you did well for the past whole month in college,
you do.
Just keep it up and don't fall just because of this.
That would be hard for you to climb up, again.
you've done great, just keep it up with your confidence.
i know u can. Believe in yourself :)
Dont forget, everything that God has given to you, it is with a purpose.


so yes, today is the last day of decision making. I guess some of the lines above already shown why am i staying back in Foundation in Business. T.T
besides, i dont wanna waste parents money lahhhh. I guess dad will be pissed off, especially after all his mega plans on me.
I'll just be good, finish up this whole frigging year and love maths for this whole year, and then later on only decide where i wanna head on.

oooh maths. ILY!
:D
lets be friends, alright? *hugs
LOL.



*edits
received a msg today.
my former school, usj 12, one of the dedicated teacher, Cik Chai passed away due to H1N1.
Checked Facebook, found of lots of info bout her.
if im not wrong, this mrng she passed away in the hospital. T.T and some teachers were quarantined. Including pn Yek, my maths teacher. :/
so usj 12 will be quarantined for the whole week.
Rest in peace, Cik Chai!


no one else will understand the amount of pain ive been thru for all these 18 years. no one does. :/
i know where am i standing, i know where is my standard. i'll just keep everything low.
but not my confidence, just like the previous years that ive been through.

should i feel happy or.. sad?

OOOOH YAYYYY ;D
was frigging nervous. but still, not as nervous as my first time.

MUAHAHAHHAHAA. slope, i fall once, then the 2nd one- PASSED! Thank God for that!
yayyyyy im a legal driver now :D
who wants to sit my car? better buy insurance first o.0 i myself also have to buy insurance before i start driving man! LOL.
ooh yar. i got insurance adi. ahahahahahhaha ;D


kinda sad la today. lecture class was like.. so empty. felt so weird and not used to it. hahahahaha.
ooh btw i , being very guai lui, attended class today right before my driving test.
all cuz of the test, I DIDN'T GET TO JOIN MY CLASSMATES FOR LUNCH AT PAPARICH!
i bet they had lots of fun. without me. oooh, lonely sobber. :/
LOL.

yayyyy 1 case done, now. no need to apply leave for driving adi! yayyyy! As for this week, i still got acc ques 2 and.. my moral presentation for next mon. :/
oooh man. i don't wanna go for the cameron trip lah. im serious.
BUT, i still have to go!
*cries

i think i need to grow up in order to face the outside, cruel world.

too immature for that. o.0

grow, girl. Grow :)

forget bout it and.. focus! studies come first la, girl.

uncertainty.

slept at 2.30am, and i couldnt wake up today :/
BMA was alright, thank God for that- it was all worthwhile of staying up late to finish em. only silly careless mistakes, as usual for june.

whole day had lots of fun laughing, going nuts, stressing.. class ended at 6pm btw.
o.0 1 of my coursemate has confirmed that he got Influenza 1. Apparently, 3 classes are on quarentine for 1 week i think?
and the other 2 class, which INCLUDES my class, are having normal lessons everyday- no quarentine.

i thought that if my class got quarentined, we can like.. get our sleeps and eyebags and finish up assignment and stuffs. but it seems like it's gonna be a bad news- those who got quarentined gotte do some self study at home i think. and they gotta submit their assignments through online, yada yada.
MOST IMPORTANTLY,
they got extra replacement classes, extended hours for the following week, i think?


thought of staying back after the workshop at 6pm, head to library to finish up my acc assignment up to 10pm since this week is gonna be a hectic and busy week for me.
but i seriously couldnt take it. too stressed up. headache. :/

o.0 tmr driving test at 12.30pm! which means, i can actually attend class tmr since it's gonna end at 11am.
lets see. :)
please don't fail me! please don't fail ahhh, june! :/
if im failing, i think im gonna retake it after ages later. LOL.

o.0 i still got 2 days left to think! but it seems like i don't even ahve time to consider bout that. oooh man. T.T

sometimes im not as strong as what you seemed it to be.

im also an ordinary girl. nothing special.

someone, come and save me please?

OMG.
i think i seriously suck in time management eversince i started college.
it seems like i can't manage everything. EVERYTHING.

Mon- i got class until 6pm. Which means, i gotta stay back until 10pm in library to do my accounts??
Tues- having 2nd driving test. (please don't fail me cuz im very lazy to apply leave and retake. and, spending lots of $$.) If possible, i shall go back to school and catch up with my account assignment.
Wed- gotta do my Moral assignment 1. Final touch up and stuffs liddat.
Thurs- LAST touch up with accounts. gotta hand up by friday yo. and wad about BMA?? EWE? others?
Fri- after class, going to Camerons with family and friends which i don't really wanna go cuz its gonna spoil all my plans and stuffs and asignment plans and community service and.. SLEEPS. LOL.


RAWRRRRR. so many things to do, so lil time.
Now, there's too many things that i wanna do which i don't even know where to start.
AND HOW ABOUT MY DECISION MAKING ON CHANGING COURSE?
no timeeee.
but im scared that i'll regret. by then, it'll be too late.
btw i did lots of personality test and facebook test or whatsoever.
every of them oso din mention that im suitable in business. But, arts related field!!
i wonder how true are they, ehhh? ;P

im so sorry with all those boring posts and complains and stuffs which u guys don't wanna read. SORRY.
i just realized that almost every post lately includes 'rawr'. LOL.

i don't know what to do.

*cries

i seriously don't know.

what now?!?!?!

happily single.

I'm pretty sucky these days. T.T
memory- like an old grandma. couldnt remember much as last time just like i do. (btw i used to have super good memories, that i can remember everything from A-Z, everything lah.)
Maybe cuz lately that im too busy. too many things to remember? LOL. or what. i can't seem to remember everything. BLUR. ALWAYS BLUR.


since when i got this BLUR-sickness until.. so serious? i seriously dont understand. Is there any ways to make my memory improve? LOL.

just had my very last driving lesson. i don't wish to have it again. i wanna pass lahhhh! :/ slope, parking, please make me pass, can? :D

frigging tired today. but im happy. can eat Nirwana for breakfast after days to cravings. ;D
still havent finish my part in Moral. But im soooo tired adi! :/
okayyy june enough of your procrastination. move ur butts girl! its either u feel tired now, or u regret later- which means more tired and sick and headaches.
5pm to church, 6.30pm youth meeting, 9pm, work on moral? :/



I need guidance. I need people to guide me through my pathway. I need support. I need suggestions. I need people to accompany me through.
the 'road not taken' situation:-
Which one? the pathway that seems to be to wide and clear or the blurred pathway, which is the grassy area with blurred visions that u couldnt see anything?
I DON'T KNOW.
in dilemma?

RAWRRRRR.
looks like i don't have any answer to it. still have another 3 days to it. :/
if i stay on, i seriously need a tutor. MATHS TUTOR! anyone will do, please? T.T


i don't need a man to be there and make me feel happy and loved, i only need my close friends to be there and make my day :)

anger shit.

*cries
now only regret. i know its abit too late. but still got 6 more days till.. the deadline! which means, if i change on time, i still can get abck 70 percent off for the course. plus, i think i can get another 3000-5000 discount with my spm result, maybe? :D

im serious with it this time. Thank God i thought of the deadline, which is before 20 Aug. can i jsut.. change to foundation in mass comm? i seriously suck in business lah. i think ive changed alot after entering college. more outspoken, giving ideas and stuff... any subject but not those subject related to maths. im serious.

just now, we had group discussion on bma assignment. i was in.. a total blur. its seems like.. im an alien to it. i just don't understand and dunno what to do.. complete silence throughout the whole time. i was in a total blank. i couldnt think of anything. damn.

another one: bma tutorials. i always blur and dun understand the ques on what they want and stuffs. either silly careless mistakes, or total blank. dont understand what the question wants. dunno how to apply formula. no add maths backgound. total suck. :/



i seriously dont understand how stupid am i. last time, when choosing subj for f4 and stuffs, i didnt choose add maths sub cuz i seriously hate maths and i know that i couldnt manage it. i hate maths and stuffs and so does maths. i told myself that i will not persue in any field that involves maths.
AND I FRIGGING DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I CHOSE BUSINESS FIELD. with all numbers and maths all linked up.

maybe simply cuz i planned to much for my future. i think too far away- thinking that business line have better future.
but ive forgotten that im stupid in maths.
HOW ON EARTH CAN I FORGET THAT IMPORTANT PART?!?!?!

it seems to be that the people around me that took up this course, have a piece of mindset that what they wanna persue in the future. clear bout everything. economics, world business news and studds liddat.
UNLIKE ME. :(

i, somehow, have more confdence that i can do well in foundation in mass comm, better than in business.
SERIOUSLY I AM NOT CONFIDENT IN MY MID TERM- esp business maths and acc.
DAMN YOU JUNE!
stupid lah youuuuuu.


and if im switching, my mum will be pissed up and i think the whole world wouldnt agree with me doing it.
my dad surely wouldnt agree to it cuz he wanted me to persue in business sooo much.
then maybe i shall bear my own coll expenses? T.T



DAMN YOU , JUNE. stupid shooooot. idiot!!

Smile like nothing ever happened.

Thank God i DIDN't burst into tears.
Today, i think ive just realized that ive seriously chose the wrong one. DAMN. why is my memory sooo bad?!?!
I remembered last time when i attend mrs. Ow's acc tuition classes that drives me crazy, I TOLD myself to just.. take the acc spm paper and never in my life, take the 2nd accounts paper AGAIN. never never be involved in acc or numbers anymore.

This kinda feeling was back.. in today's account class. was struggling badly. :/
i kept holding onto my tears for the whole day. i shall hold onto it, never allow anyone to see it.
i know,
i know,
i know.

no one will understand it. no one can help me much. i know i am the only answer. i know i gotta stand up strong and solve this by myself.

so does Business Maths. i nearly died. blur, blur and blurred. wipping tears all the way through. keep telling myself to jsut.. hold on.


enough of moodswings and hatred towards math. since ive chose this, the wrong choice just like last time taking account, I SHALL just hang onto it.
AND SMILE TOWARDS IT like nothing ever happened.

sorry guys if ive dissapointed u today or.. behaved like not-so-june.
i promise im gonna behave well starting tomorrow, like nothing ever happened and smile widely.
:)


i guess this is the only way.
what more?!?!

so pissed off, so tired, so angry, so whiny. :/
enough said.

roller coaster day.

what a STRESS n tiring day :/

class ended at 11am, lunched, went to library and had moral group discussion for half n hr. managed to join them for another .. 20 mins for pool! YAYYYY :D my first time, it was quite okayy pretty fun but yea, i failed lahhh. :P manage to hit 2 balls (not bad not bad :D) by the guys' help. :)

went abck to library to finish up account assignment. sat there for around.. 3 and a half hours? still cant finish em all. went to main campus for the charity drama i think. i was rm5 ticket but sumhow i got it for free. only got 2 tickets, so ended up only me and Jack went. it was awesome, by the Foundation in Science students.

went abck to library for half n hr, then came back home. so, in short, i still ahven't/ can't finish up my account individual assignment.
RAWR.


more and more pimples popping up. all thanx to stress. i think, i dont have so many pimples in my life until i stepped into college. im serious. :/


sorry guys for so many boring post lately. just wanna express myself through here. release stress :D i shall write more interesting post.. some other day? :/

gotta get myself back to assignments. ciao. :)

directionless.

im so tireddddd.
rainy day, syokkknya. ;/
nvm, i had some close-eyes-session-while-listening-to-musics at m floor just now for like.. 1 hour plus while waiting for mum? o.0

had lots of fun laughing today. ahhahaha :D
im lame tho.
and i crap alot o.0
and i also think that.. im crazy. sometimes, maybe? @@

ooh crap. acc lecture tmr.
its only like.. 1 month plus taking business foundation and i think... i already started to regret for taking up this course.
all thanx to maths and numbers.
okayyy, maybe not.
all thanx to my blurness and undecisiveness.
BUT,
im just gonna continue and work hard on it nomatter what happens and.. at least pass em.

and for the tertiary, i shall decide later whether i wanna take up mass comm or just, be a business grad.


ii gakuse naritai ne! :)

the dream of urs.

GREAT.
i thought its the weekend that i can sleep in more but apparently, i woke up at 7.30am. =.="""
just because, i can't sleep. RAWR.


sometimes i do find that.. does college life makes u find a new group of.. close, intimate friends, that r u able to count on them?
sad to say, there's one girl who looks so gentle, lady-like, friendly, intelligent, nice and all the good qualities lah. i had quite.. a good impression on her.
until she took out a stick and start smoking. every puff of her shows her satisfaction and.. syokness.

wow.
we can't really judge a book by its cover.
sometimes i do think that college life is like a brand new start: new life, new friends, new workloads, new everything.

blah i dunno what am i crapping here anyway, i only know i gotta hold back myself and, be careful.
or maybe, i should just be.. moderate.


blah. again, i dunno what am i crapping and yapping here. so,
time to work on my assignments lah! T.T

ooh btw i have so many pimples on my face. i think more than when i as in ns? o.0
serious shoooot. din have so many pimples on my cheeks before.

is there a u-turn?

looks like ive been blogging too much. hahahaha :D
its like.. my place to express everything out. sorry peeps if my post are.. too boring! :D


ooh man. my brain is back to normal -
1. BMA blur blur blur, silly mistakes, rawr. geram sia. i wonder how am i gonan survive through mid term.. hmmm..
2. sampat here n there, laugh laugh laugh :D
3. quick in response ;p
4. eat Asam laksa with the f5 econ gang muahahahaha :P
5. tastebud coming back to normal?


RAWR. soooo many assignments- its like 1 come in, then others come in non stop!! now new one again. :/ economy! rawr rawr rawr! hmmph T.T
did u guys jsut realized something? i think almost every post ive been complaining about assignments. ahhahaha.

this afternoon did account individual assignment in the library. damn. it seriously killing my brain cells. as in, we gotta oni.. refer to books for info :/ those textbooks n references.. damn thick! so many words :/ some of them look more like.. dictionary? ahhahaha :D

Went for f5 economy gang reunion- makan asam laksa at angela's aunty stall, usj 14. not bad laa. but i just ngam ngam hou dit.. then eat spicy food ;p soooo spicy for me but not for them. :/
had fun laughing oso laaa. Ah wai somehow.. changed. maybe cuz his hairstyle or stg? o.0
oo i love teacher's new hairstyle laaa. suits her :) and.. some ppl's hairstyle changed too, yada yada.. it's nice catching up with people :)
thx to angela and wen chin for fetching me! :D


sometimes we're just to eager for things to happen faster. why don't try taking a step back? it might just.. make things turn better.

i think thats all for now.
byeeeeeeeee.

natural works best yo :)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx


Here is the analysis:
Bright and CheerfulYou are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.


maybe 80% right.
MUAHAHAHAHA. see? AGAIN. i am not suitable for business ehhh? so why am i taking that, again? LOL.



Today went to college at 8am. still wasnt really feeling well. a lil only lah, not a big deal.
"eh why today u so quiet ahh?"
"maybe cuz.. im not feeling well? o.0 "

well, i think the medicines somehow.. makes my brain work better. ahahahahhaa. For instance:
1. Business Maths lecture- not much of mistake and im able to absorb quickly. LOL.
2. Accounts- usually i either wanna kill myself or kill the tutor. but today, i sat quietly and listen to every word that she said for 2 hours- without feeling tired or sad or moody or anything. including her naggings.
3. Economy- i manage get all the tutorial question right. :)

how i wish im so gooood everyday, understand maths so quickly and do well everyday - like today :/
but the sad thing bout today is, i dont feel hyper n not-so-happy?
bluerrrrrrghhhh.


Hello, i got so many assignments with me. RAWR.
sleepless night- coming soon.
byeeeee people :)

RAWR.

slept for 5 hours from, 12pm-5pm. geng. the power of drowsy-ness. lol.
yet, still very headache, uncomfortable, feeling not-so-good. :/


but i can't bear to skip more classes laaa. so many things to do man. so lil time!
shoooot.

kimochi wa sukoshi warui.

on MC , muahahahahahha ;D

So, yesterday, ate the medicine that makes me lazy, just get on the bed and.. doozed off. woke up, had serious headaches. so hard to get up can! o.0 kept forcing myself to do so since there's one lecture class.
Jenny jie n mum kept asking me to skip, but i insisted- yeahoo! thank God i went for lecture class only. out of sudden miss rabiah gave us pop quiz that forward some marks to mid term i think. muahahahahahah :D

was pretty dead throughout the whole 2 hrs. just couldnt sit up straight and think right, blur, tired, no response lah. maybe i screwed some of the pop quiz due to that. :/
ended, wait for mum to pick me up. for sooo long. cuz she was in hospital visiting dad.

ooh btw, the lim family, apparently, all sick. :/
at first, it was my sis - soar throat, cough, flu.
the me- headaches, soar throat, flu and a lil cough.
then dad- went to hospital cuz he had appendices.
then mum- soar throat and flu.

the virus is spreading T.T
gotta go off to bed now. real dizzy again, just had medicines.


i wonder how am i gonna finish up my homeworks and assignments. plus, tmr class from 8-4pm and i got moral group discussion after that.
cry for life!


sabishii ne. doshite? watashi mo wakaranai.
karada ga warui? kimochi ga warui? doshite??

complexity.

effing pfffft.
SOOOO many assignments- that i dunno where should i start.

researches- i somehow cant find what i want n what i need to.
one word: die. LOL.

and im not feeling well.
please take a gun and shoot me please. Or at least, try and kill me.
LOL.

bye world. off to sleep- medicines makes me drowsy.
o.0 how am i gonna stay up and work on the assignments? 3 group assignments and 1 individual .

and this is just the beginning- i believe there's more coming in.
as in, piles of em.
RAWRRRR!

aint easy.

Sometimes i just wanna go.. pooof-off.
Maybe cuz im not feeling well, and somehow it disturbs me.
RAWR.


i need a fire extinguisher!

bill and shoots.

Signs of H1N1: soar throat, flu, a lil cough, terrible headache from sat to sun.
LOL.

So, today class ended at 11am. Was pretty blur and.. sick. Awhile okayyy and awhile dazed off and blur and can't really get what people are trying to say.. yada yada.. but i had a good laugh with elaine and the guys at kopitiam.

Lunched then went to clinic. get so many medicines. zzzzz. And 1 day MC! still not sure whether i wanna skip class tmr. Got econs lecture.. and if i ever miss, im gonna be like @@ and blur and dun understand and stuffs.

So many assignments coming in lah. Im seriously so used to- holiday mood! had too much of lazy days and now.. i gotta work super hard to catch back the last train- where i stopped my studies. 7 months after spm! wow. So many stuffs that ive studied- all gone. blew away by the winds :D
i gotta get my butts moving man. :)

But i still wonder at times- whether did i make the right choice. Hello, this course talk alot bout maths and numbers! :/ Business Maths, Business Statistics, Accounts 1 , 2, Econs..
fineeeeee. im just gonna sit upright and continue till it ends- and score.



Sometimes i dont get it when we youths are moving and the adults simply are.. so lazy. They demand/ want/ giving so many suggestions for improvements, complain here n there yada yada.. all those billshoooot that they give.. DAMN IRRITATING CAN.
Some of them are simply.. Immature compared to some of the youths. Sorry to say, but yes they do.

When they complain so much, Want so much from us, what do u expect us to do? We did get ourselves moving, but u simply dont see it and sorta ignore or,. whatever lah. you as an adult should set some examples, right? complain and complain. u complain so much sure got sollutions or.. ways for it right? why i dont see u moving?
AND the worst thing is, you didnt support us when we are moving. Not even a word of encouragement or so.

all these are called.. bullsheeeeet.
stop complaining woman, u dont deserve it.

LOL.

natural works best(:

so happy that the Sat movie outing with the youths was on :)

I am a lousy organizer. LOL.

was so frigging blur for the past 3 days man. wtheck. Maybe some of them even wanna kill me. lol. sorry guys!

Enjoyed the movie although i've heard many negative remarks. I find that it's pretty hillarious too. Kept laughing with Zoey and Manda. Heared John laughing so loud too. lmao.personally rated: 8.5/10 :)

I guess it's a good one too, with Joey and Nikira. I guess it's their first time too, outing with youths and without parents around.

The show ended around 12am. and i wasnt feeling well for that night, and the next day- Sunday. was having major headaches and getting flu. hohoho H1N1?? o.0

Today:

I'm the best one man. Woke up and came without looking at the timetable, thinking that it would be at 8am. Went to TBS lobby and was like..

'ehh how come i dont see people from 1.3?"

hahahahaha. Zhadou. looked at the timetable and class starts 9. aduiii! or else i can get more beauty sleep!

I thought i was the only one, but.. hahahahahaa. Kwan Neng oso the same case ;p

WHY CANT BLOGGER SAVE MY SPACING BETWEEN EVERY PARAGRAPH EHH? irritating! been trying so many times :/ rawr. everything like a junk now!

we gotta get going to fix it.

okayyy sometimes i do think human are kinda.. weird.

At times we just want things to be that way, that kinda.. sinful way. We know it's wrong, but we just wanna do it- to avoid ourselves from getting into troubles or whatsoever.

And we did it.

And after doing it, we tend to regret and.. feel bad bout it. =.=
what lah.



Moral assignment- im having problems with it. At first i was hyped up that i can help- as in, we can go to our church, or maybe, The Salvation Army old folks home.
But, looks like our plan gotta change. silly me.
now, im so confused. Which one now? I gotta like.. make sure asap right.

Now im not hyped up at all- kinda blur and errr.. lol.
speechless.

my lips are seeled. opps, sorry!